1. |
Ferrara Drive
03:17
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I was raised in a culture that I admire to death
But the more I see the business side I just desire it less
Wired and stressed, nowhere near retirement yet
But I hope that even If I fail I still inspire success
It still really amazes how my feelings embraces
One critique as if it outweighs a million praises (Yeah)
I heard I can be the next this person, but firstly
I aint tryna be the next nobody but be the first me
Never smoked much cuz when my dad was provoked
You'll hear his liquor was much louder than any bag that we smoked
So I'm on the 10 I'm headed to Wheaton right off the redline
Like it was denied loans for being behind said line
Every stop is familiar, every block to the stone
Chopped Peruvian chicken with the yellow sauce to the bone
Then I'm back on Ferrara Drive and I'm lost in a zone
Thinkin man, this will always be home
This will always be home
This will always be home
See home is where the heart is
So whether I'm far or I'm departed
Just know that Ima always be home
Ima always be home
Ima always be home
See home is where the heart is
So whether I'm far or I'm departed
Just know that Ima always be home
Dream so far so you go far away
Dream so hard no time for holiday
Dream so far so you go far away
When I seem lost, I think of how far I came
From Ferrara Drive
This is where is started, youngins lunchin and party
Where the past seeds were planted to the prep for the coming harvest
And know its fairly guarded cuz home is where the heart is
Letting go was always hard, but home is where it's hardest
Its time the big fish go find a larger pool
The larger it grows in its pond it'll probably have a smaller view
But a monster do belong in bigger bodies of water
Brought em lobotomy bars in his body bags and a bottle too
It got him through everything, as he tracks along upon the path he's on
Traveling fast, he's passing his past, a vagabond
Who has a song, singing it mad until the crack of dawn
He doesn't have much but he just wants to have it passed along
And let it transpire
No internet glitch, just a myth, a story around the campfire
A mans wired to survive til his death
But a legend lives on forever pass the time that he left
Word Up
Ima always be home
Ima always be home
See home is where the heart is
So whether I'm far or I'm departed
Just know that Ima always be home
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2. |
Hold Up
03:08
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While your heads just above water, struggling to see land
Each hand tryna reach for the beach sand
While I be swimming, back stroking in the deep end
If they wanna sleep then Ima let em sleep in
See your alarm ain't have its timer on
You the type thats envious of who the shine is on
You smiling in their face, but by the time they're gone
You're airing out their dirty laundry but inside you wanna try it on
You big heated while I cop a bottle chilled
After locking in a deal
The process made a lot of profit, whole time you caught up in the thrills
So now you cuttin corners tryna snort up all the hard to swallow pills
You too concerned with people who ain't worth a jack
There's words that needed furnishing but no one even heard word of that
You had a light but didn't cherish it until it turned to black
And only time you turn to God is when he turns his back
Hold up! Game don't play
You think you can play your way?
I said wait a minute, hold up! Day by day
Listen to the game I say
I said wait a minute, hold up! Play your way
You ain't gonna play one day
I said wait a minute, hold up! Pave yo way
But you better stay in yo lane
The root of all evil is found in every solid foundation
Its why you got a crown or why you got your crown taken
Spot light is hotter now ain't it?
Money isn't buying happiness but it's a solid down payment
Gotta lock a smile when you spot a clown hatin
Cuz thats expected like a spotted Dalmatian
That's why I got the chopper out large as a crocodiles mouth with a lot of rounds waiting, whos up?
Better watch ya tongue before it swell your lips
Cuz you don't know who ain't the one to be messin with
Fuck around and face a drum with a steady grip
While you try stickin to your guns with an empty clip
So never be too cocky and see you check your ego
You can have the hawk but then he could have the eagle
Take the words to heart like its squeezed inside a needle
Just tryna do my part and spread the steez to all my people
Hold up! Game don't play
You think you can play your way?
I said wait a minute, hold up! Day by day
Listen to the game I say
I said wait a minute, hold up! Play your way
You ain't gonna play one day
I said wait a minute, hold up! Pave yo way
But you better stay in yo lane
This is soul food, like a whole food for soul
with some Soju from Seoul
Your produce will grow unless there's foes to your goal
If you don't want beef then be hopeful that you can take your tofu to go
So go for the gold, take a shot for the kill
If you grown then you know, if you not then you will
So Ima let you go with something
Be real, be chill, and remember no one owes you nothin
Hold up! Game don't play
You think you can play your way?
I said wait a minute, hold up! Day by day
Listen to the game I say
I said wait a minute, hold up! Play your way
You ain't gonna play one day
I said wait a minute, hold up! Pave yo way
But you better stay in yo lane
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3. |
Growing Pains
03:38
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I've had my ups, I've had my downs
From toasts to poured liquor, yeah I've had my rounds
I've been lost a few times but I'm glad I'm found
But don't jump the gun like I wouldn't grab mine now
I'm just a man, to protect and provide
With a predators drive to get his prey or let competitors try
Go head and send them in like 10 at a time
Against a vet at his prime at a level you ain't ready to climb, nah
So pick your battles the war could be living on
When you get that gut feeling in it normally isn't wrong
You can see the fat lady come over to sing a song
And when it's time to face the music, I know just to sing along
That's why when it's time to fall down, some sing
But when some of them are scared of the ground, some cling
Don't be fascinated or wowed from bling
When I drop gems, it adds to your crown, young king
So hold it, you can hold your own right?
Kings in our own right even in places where we don't own rights
Blinded by their own light
Even how we see things, we can still be blinded by our own sight
All about perspective on the way that it is
I don't care no more and hate the days that I did
Give and take is the way that I live
So I ain't gotta take shit from no one if there any to give
So I'd pray and go to mass for the faith with hopes to last
I didn't have the bread but I still paid to go to class
The days I'm low on cash, a phase I'd hope to pass
So only time I'd window shop is to replace this broken glass, yeah
I tried to act like a winner to get my own win
Til I figured I'm more comfortable in my own skin
I thought it works if you tried but it doesn't
See being real means admitting to the times that I wasn't
See its only the weak that needs to be coddled
If this is something you need, you need to be remodeled
So face adversity, not some cheap bottle
Stand for something you believe in even if your knees wobble
Many fought to stay away from the hands of death
But have you fought the thought of thinking it's the only answer left?
Those who've always stayed afloat could never handle depth
The hand your dealt is all you got to gamble with so plan your bets
The game is greedy, it enslaves you
You'll find blood on your hands that spilled on your suedes and on your chain too
I want a chain but that same chain can restrain you
From being great through the way folks in their graves has paved you
So I ain't living like some stick in the mud
And I don't let the bullshit stick around it's nipped in the bud
Family or not just dip if you ain't given me love
Blood is thicker than water but a bond is thicker than blood
I love my people but I've had struggles with loving me
Always setting these standards that hovers above my reach
Succumbed to some hungry need to becoming what wasn't me
Even misery doesn't wanna accompany what it sees
Its a fight and we're dumped in the ring
See pressure makes diamonds but the pressure's not a comfortable thing
It'll push you to edge like you a sucka or king?
But when push comes to shove I say fuck it and swing
Don't let the negativity knock you off of your chakra
It could make you feel like a cause is lost and it stops ya
Or gets you going like you start poppin off with the choppers
Just knock it off of the top before all of your thoughts get darker
It's riveting but limiting too
Don't let nobody in and put a limit on you
Keep going them rounds and only time that you should throw in the towel is when it's something you can't physically do
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It was up the street, a hub just for us to meet
Nothin big, it was just the peeps
Car doors open, we was bumping beats
Bumper sipping, gettin buzzed, lunchin, son the least we'd come with would be a dozen deep
Milwaukees 'beast' with some cheaper bottles too
If some females hopping through then we'd just lead em on the roof
Sharing stories, talking bout the dreams we wanna do
We'd just kick it, spark a jack and you'll hear people calling "Deuce!"
Til shorty picked who she would leave with
On cold days we would roast each other until one of us was heated
It wasn't something that would cut the hunger but it eased it
To some its something mean, to us its something that we needed
Just for the camaraderie part
And though the barking was harsh, its where the bonding would start
It was the center of our neighborhood, it has a place in all of our hearts
(And its pretty) See every city needs a Holiday Park
We laugh, we cry
Dedicate and celebrate moments in our life
We fuss, we fight
Shoot the breeze to get away
And though years have came and gone
It still holds a place in our heart
Holiday Park, Holiday Park, Holiday
Its just a single building with an open lot
Theres no special reason why we chose it, its the closest spot
A block over so we'd go and walk
Smoking, then going toe to toe with shots, whether it was cold or hot
Rollin if we noticed cops, a lot of us has caught offenses
Everything was thrown or dropped, as we started hopping fences
Fresh blunts that we threw in the wind
We'd laugh it off just to come back and do it again
Freestylin' in the car as we'd take more hits
Before that we used to bring cans to paint on shit
Further back we'd meet there to work on skateboard tricks
With poor choices, the memories were made more rich
But then we all have to grow up and life would get to start
Some folks remain close while others would drift apart
It hits the heart when you miss it but it hits the mark
Shit is different now, it's empty when I hit the park
We laugh, we cry
Dedicate and celebrate moments in our life
We fuss, we fight
Shoot the breeze to get away
And though years have came and gone
It still holds a place in our heart
Holiday Park, Holiday Park, Holiday
Rest in peace to those who passed and hold ya head to those whose in a cell
If we were ever indifferent for real I wish you well
And I gots to pray for those who might've lost their way
Even if we haven't spoke in years or if we talked today
Remember when we had fun, yeah we'd clash some
But there was nothing that we couldn't come back from
A quick chat or scrap and that's done
And it was back to laughs, 30 packs, and jacks in every snack run
To Holiday Park
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5. |
Ten Years
04:45
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It's been 10 years since you left us
You fought the good fight and you ain't rest much
We received the best of all their blessings and the best lucks
But it was a mess leaving the hospital cuz we left crushed
When fate came in and trashed our hopes
Dad was broken, I know you and dad were close
The episodes he had after, the packs he smoked
And though we were all sad, it hit dad the most
It was a trip to look into his sad eyes
It was the first time I ever seen Dad cry
Family arguing over bullshit, what happened was that
But Dad had a heart attack a little after you passed
He's fine now but Im telling you though, you should see it
You know Dad quit smoking right? Could you believe it?
He adjusted his life down to the food he's eating
Still boozes but he doesn't lose it like he use to, he's a new human being
After everything he managed to change
Heh, You'd be proud of the man he became
And Mom's been ok for coming out of dysfunction
But her and Dad split and lost the house we grew up in
Dad's with our aunt, Mom's in a place of her own
Barely gettin by, I know you probably hate she's alone
But I moved to LA, I'm here chasing my goals
But if we moved back, we wouldn't have a place to call home
They say you can visit dreams, is it true?
When I see you in my dreams, is it you?
It's like nothing ever happened, we just lunchin and we laughing and to wake up wasn't easy to do
Can you leave me a clue? Please cuz I need to see a sign
And knowing you're at peace will give me peace of mind
On my knees tryna find the pieces but I needed time
Regretting everyday the decision I made to leave your side
Always in bed cuz your body was weak
You weren't making any sense when you started to speak
It was the hardest to peep, you once stopped me as I started to leave
You just said "I love you David" before falling asleep
It was like you tried your hardest and you fought the disease
To be free of it for a moment to be conscious with me
Acknowledging that tomorrow isn't promised to see
And I couldn't be strong for you when you were strongest for me
But things worsened when you were in the ICU
In a coma, feeling dread when I see you
I was there everyday, while visitors came and go
The feeling I held inside was what everyone's face would show
A miracle developed, a flower from a cement crack
Your eyes opened, a blessing that God has sent back
To see your folks and converse with em first
Before it all starts to swerve and make a turn for the worse
Seeing struggle in your eyes, hoping the doc could do something
You were lookin at us for help but we couldn't do nothing
Feeling helpless on top of the fact I'll grieve
I couldn't be in there no more, I left, man I had to leave
My weaknesses need to hide inside a pint of that jack
And you were gone by the time I came back
And that, just devours me man
No matter how I tried to justify it, I was a coward and ran
What were you thinking when you ain't see your brother there?
I really hope you didn't think it's cuz he doesn't care
He was being really selfish getting drunk somewhere
Cuz he ain't ever lose somebody that close he was fucking scared
I cried writing this, I tried fighting it
That guy in the mirror's the guy who I'm fighting with
And every hit feel like a strike from Mike Tyson's fists
I can't hide it, its time I shine light on this
We used to fight all the time, and that was nothing new
It never mattered why we fought cuz that's what brothers do
I wish we could have one last walk
One last heart to heart and have one last talk
Then have one last laugh and have one last shot
One last hug before you make your one last stop
So speaking for myself, your family and friends here
We still love you and miss you bro, even after 10 years
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Make something for the club! Am I supposed to?
Why make music for places I don't ever go to
I like to tell stories of different things I would go through
And if you can relate, its sole purpose is to console you
This is for the young lady with her broken heart in her palms
Too young to know that part'll be gone, but replaced with something better
For the young king who don't notice the crown on his dome
Cuz he's always busy looking down at his phone
Comparing highlights of everyone's high life to the doubts of his own
Feeling out of it, out of his zone
But this a bit of courage when you wanna run for the hills
This is for that type of pain only good company heals
This that long drive for clearing your mind and your thoughts
That time that you got to yourself where time would just stop
This that background noise you don't pay attention to
But somehow it helps get you through whatever it is you getting through
I'm a little stronger today
I'm a little different now
From the way I used to be
Cuz of all the pain I found
This is our life, it's real, what you feel
Let it guide you back to yourself
and let you heal
This that hand to help guide you when you lost rhythm
This is for that person you lost and that piece of yourself that you lost with them
This that peace you feel when you realize that Gods wit em now
Lookin down at the squad chillin
For those 'I love you's' we never got to say
So if you haven't already then you should call today
Don't let a long lifetime of regret be caused by a small delay
Cuz there's so much you gotta do, and you're always on your way
Somewhere, but someone wants to catch up some time
So put aside some time just one time,
In the confines of good food and sunshine, this for that one try
After you thought you'd give up, but once I
Move on, I feel like i got little control back
This is that food for the soul, but with a soul clap
This is that moment with your child before they grow fast
This is for every pain you've grown pass
Healer
I'm a little stronger today
I'm a little different now
From the way I used to be
Cuz of all the pain I found
This is our life, it's real, what you feel
Let it guide you back to yourself
and let you heal
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7. |
The Edge
02:48
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Tomorrow be a new day but today be a new me
Turning a new leaf, letting fumes from the loose leaf loose
Shooting like uzis, putting holes through this smooth beat
Ain't nothing too deep that we cant handle two deep
Me and Dee Miinor with exclusives like a news leak
Newsweek wouldn't cover a cold kid unless their views peaked
Make a few beefs seem bigger to sell a huge piece
Truth is peeps need truces I'm talking true peace
That's the last straw so before you use it for Mai Thai's
Here's a fine rye made of my rhymes advised by
Cyhi The Prince with a pinch of 5'9
The sky's the limit, the building is where we would draw the sky line
Fast rappers packing all these words in a frame
I make a point and I don't need that many words to explain
That happiness is the result when you can learn from your pain
Cuz things look better in the sun when it emerges from rain
This is all I know and this is how I'm fed
Tryna get the edge off living on the edge
Knocking all these heads off tryna get ahead
Letting myself get lost and this is where it's lead
The top of my game
(With everybody)
Calling my name
(And everybody)
Got it engrained
I'm at the edge of the top
And have the baddest chick in the game rockin my chain, yeah
You wanna make your moves but I'm tryna make a movement move
If your movement isn't bout making mula than too da loo
I do what only few can do
And since I only do me I don't really care bout who is who
What he does or who he knew
Gotta bad chick that cook catfish on my dinner plate
You get wack shit and book catfish on your tinder dates
But I've been there before, I'll confess to it first
Til I shifted focus on my hunger and less on my thirst
The hustle don't ever stop, no concession stands and no interlude
Cuz with these kinda bars we serving liquor with prison food
Its wicked, it kick like a 50 caliber into you
And If you want it just tell me where you want it delivered to
Your clique ain't shit when the click of a pistol triggers you
And I used to be so despicable
But I'd rather have did it and wish i didn't than sit on the things I didn't do
Cuz I could burn a bridge but rebuild it to its initial route
But bigger, better, architecture interstellar, pretty like pre midnight Cinderella
we got figures fellas can not divide, like a prime digit
I live it like to live your truth or lay in your lies and die in it
And If you last it be at a cost, its out of pocket, catastrophic
Its like what the rapture and what the wrath of God is
It isn't logical taking this path with rap but its pathologic
It's rabid and nothing that's in its path could stop it
This is all I know and this is how I'm fed
Tryna get the edge off living on the edge
Knocking all these heads off tryna get ahead
Letting myself get lost and this is where it's lead
The top of my game
(With everybody)
Calling my name
(And everybody)
Got it engrained
I'm at the edge of the top
And have the baddest chick in the game rockin my chain, yeah
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I ain't politically correct
I'm in to giving Individual respect
Whether you're into this or whether you're into that role
Believe what you believe in as long as you ain't an asshole
Cuz people talk and conviction is strong
Til they're confronted with facts and cant admit that they wrong
But they stick to your guns so respect is instantly gone
Cuz they listen to the beat but not to what I spit in a song
You ain't got the facts but try to act smarter
Now you looking like an ass and we laugh harder
So we can't hear what you saying, you breaking up like a bad partner
There's no baby around, it's just the bath water
For your kool aid and righteous intent
Its why you lost both your sight and you sense
Accelerating all the things that we tryna prevent
And lose the fight by turning into the monsters that you fighting against
Who's wrong? Who's right to decide it?
My heart, my mind won't silence
You try, you fight, but I will survive
Where do we go from here?
Everybody's arguing, itching to get it on
Cuz you cant live with certain opinions considered wrong
I might be showing my age, but back in my day people with different opinions could get along
At this point a civil discussion is past due
But it seems that civil discussions are taboo
Sticks and stones break bones but now words are loaded weapons
They'll jump the gun when they triggered by a loaded question
And try burning the bridge and knock it down
Over differences rather than build on common ground
Cancel culture mobs are formed from different victim rallies
Going from being triggered to trigger happy
Crossing off names who crossed your line
Like a 10 year old joke, y'all done lost your mind
Some of you would do whatever to remove my voice
If you do this, then you just done proved my point
Who's wrong? Who's right to decide it?
My heart, my mind won't silence
You try, you fight, but I will survive
Where do we go from here?
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Mi casa es mi casa, tu casa is your shit
I thought the saying is "Mi casa es tu casa?" No bitch
I hope these jokers don't ask for jack cuz I'm a king here, go fish
They always telling me don't trip, I got a short temper that grows quick
Like holes in my pockets, my dime will drop it low right on the drop of a dime
Cuz everything's top of the line, just like the dot on the "i"
Don't let the comb over fool you, homie be poppin' the 9
You think it's just talk with this Glock that I got then go on and come walk cross that property line
Don't try to wave howdy neighbor at us if busta's don't fuck with me
Cuz you ain't got the heart for the cardio to run your damn mouth in front of me
If they count on you, then their math's wrong, the fat lady sing a sad song
And that's the song that we'll have on if we catch y'all on our grass lawn
Cuz this is...
Our House, in the middle of our street
Our House, in the city filled with dreams
Our House, we gon' get it with our team
Our House Yeah
Our House, in the middle of our street
Our House, there's no getting in between
Our House, climb the hill and you gon' see
Our House Yeah
You built the buildings, we built the strip, live on the edge cuz we built the cliff
We built it with blood, sweat, tears, and bare hands with no Bob the Builder kits
It's not about all the things it's built on, but it's about who you built it with
And if they the type to go hard like the wet cement that y'all use the fill the bricks
We low key, we done struttin', you must protect it if you love something
If we invite you, it means we like you, so come on in but don't touch nothing
It took too long to make roses grow from the concrete of these hard streets
A steep cost just to be boss like starve yourself to see your dogs eat
To hustle hard when you want sleep, in your own bed with some soft sheets
But we grind like we cheat time as if we can short change a long week
So keep out, no trespassing, beware my dogs got long heat
I protect whats mine, so respect the line, so watch your step and where you walk please
Cuz this is...
Our House, in the middle of our street
Our House, in the city filled with dreams
Our House, we gon' get it with our team
Our House Yeah
Our House, in the middle of our street
Our House, there's no getting in between
Our House, climb the hill and you gon' see
Our House Yeah
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10. |
4016 Freestyle
01:25
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Get yo mumbo sauce where you get Lo Mein
The broke smoke dippa and the rich sniff cocaine
Everybody got an ego but I spit more game
Yeah your shit don't stink, bitch my shit don't stain
When you can see dough and smell the rolled blunts
Hoes stunt like they a snack, yeah no, I brought my own lunch
Why I gotta front for? Born for the forefront
Homie's been calling shots, never been on hold once
Women love ya boy for real tho
Pickle is I'm a real dick, they know the deal tho
Im a real show, so when I die, bury me in steel toes
Cuz when I kick the bucket I'm punting it through a field
goal
And there were roads where my car had died
So I never got to go, cuz I lost my drive
At the time I didn't know, it was God's design
Devil tried to buy my soul but his card declined
And I don't see what they see in you
See I kill MCs for no other reason than its the season to
Throw salt on my name, but what will a little seasoning do?
To a seasoned vet from someone whose seen as seasonal
Home is where the heart is and dude live in a huge tanker
I'm the move, that dude, I be the new standard
A loose cannon with new bangers like 2 hammers
In the 2 handles of bruce banner when dudes angered
Im no new green soldier, I'm like Bruce lee, Yoda
I'm the new chief loose leaf smoker, man
I lose sleep when your boo sleep over
You can take her back, she ain't shit to lose sleep over
You ain't built for this, all your gas burns by quick
Your parts are out dated, plus you need your turbine fixed
The word is in the words I spit
In other words, fuck what you heard if you ain't ever heard my shit
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