It's been 10 years since you left us
You fought the good fight and you ain't rest much
We received the best of all their blessings and the best lucks
But it was a mess leaving the hospital cuz we left crushed
When fate came in and trashed our hopes
Dad was broken, I know you and dad were close
The episodes he had after, the packs he smoked
And though we were all sad, it hit dad the most
It was a trip to look into his sad eyes
It was the first time I ever seen Dad cry
Family arguing over bullshit, what happened was that
But Dad had a heart attack a little after you passed
He's fine now but Im telling you though, you should see it
You know Dad quit smoking right? Could you believe it?
He adjusted his life down to the food he's eating
Still boozes but he doesn't lose it like he use to, he's a new human being
After everything he managed to change
Heh, You'd be proud of the man he became
And Mom's been ok for coming out of dysfunction
But her and Dad split and lost the house we grew up in
Dad's with our aunt, Mom's in a place of her own
Barely gettin by, I know you probably hate she's alone
But I moved to LA, I'm here chasing my goals
But if we moved back, we wouldn't have a place to call home
They say you can visit dreams, is it true?
When I see you in my dreams, is it you?
It's like nothing ever happened, we just lunchin and we laughing and to wake up wasn't easy to do
Can you leave me a clue? Please cuz I need to see a sign
And knowing you're at peace will give me peace of mind
On my knees tryna find the pieces but I needed time
Regretting everyday the decision I made to leave your side


Always in bed cuz your body was weak
You weren't making any sense when you started to speak
It was the hardest to peep, you once stopped me as I started to leave
You just said "I love you David" before falling asleep
It was like you tried your hardest and you fought the disease
To be free of it for a moment to be conscious with me
Acknowledging that tomorrow isn't promised to see
And I couldn't be strong for you when you were strongest for me
But things worsened when you were in the ICU
In a coma, feeling dread when I see you
I was there everyday, while visitors came and go
The feeling I held inside was what everyone's face would show
A miracle developed, a flower from a cement crack
Your eyes opened, a blessing that God has sent back
To see your folks and converse with em first
Before it all starts to swerve and make a turn for the worse
Seeing struggle in your eyes, hoping the doc could do something
You were lookin at us for help but we couldn't do nothing
Feeling helpless on top of the fact I'll grieve
I couldn't be in there no more, I left, man I had to leave
My weaknesses need to hide inside a pint of that jack
And you were gone by the time I came back
And that, just devours me man
No matter how I tried to justify it, I was a coward and ran
What were you thinking when you ain't see your brother there?
I really hope you didn't think it's cuz he doesn't care
He was being really selfish getting drunk somewhere
Cuz he ain't ever lose somebody that close he was fucking scared
I cried writing this, I tried fighting it
That guy in the mirror's the guy who I'm fighting with
And every hit feel like a strike from Mike Tyson's fists
I can't hide it, its time I shine light on this
We used to fight all the time, and that was nothing new
It never mattered why we fought cuz that's what brothers do
I wish we could have one last walk
One last heart to heart and have one last talk
Then have one last laugh and have one last shot
One last hug before you make your one last stop
So speaking for myself, your family and friends here
We still love you and miss you bro, even after 10 years